still got the blue for you.

Thanks God for everything you've gave me after all my sins, i admit too many people i've hurt in my past. I'm sorry.

 I'm admit that i still got the blue for you, i really missed him. i want you back, i know im done wrong in our past, im sorry, and i hope every step i take today will prove to you that im still got this feeling. i knew i been annoying around you lately, but i have something i want to prove. Please just let me do my best. i know my past posted, i told i want to move on, i can! im still stuck between us. all the memories, promised have made still here, in my heart. i know i can handle this, trying and i will never regret anything. i will and i can give up on the thing i really want in my life, i know you felt same way right? i know you still missed me. so, lets time decide. i don't care if i have wait for so long, because this feeling towards you never fade away. I promises!

Dear Heart, Please Be strong.

"If you Love them, set them free. if they come back, you're meant to be."

  I' d know it's love when you've been saying good bye for the last half hour and you are still not ready to leave them. Sometimes i find myself stuck between giving up and still trying, while i know the truth. Every second chance i give i just hope i'll get him back. But, i do realize second chances are like giving that person another chance to hurt me more. Life is all about trusting our feeling and taking chances, losing & finding happiness, appreciating the memories & learning from the past. Yess, i'd believe in my feeling, its the right  time for me to moving on, find my happiness and letting go. Maybe, i should start pretending like nothing ever happened between us, i mean since it was so easy for you.

 One and half month, time passed us, since you leave me and forget all your promises. I been through all the hard situation, and i just hoping you will understand my feelings. But, it's unbelievable, in the blink of eye people can change. one day, you mean everything . the next day you dont exist anymore. 

Lats nite, i was dreamed about you.I know it's bad dream i ever had. It's scare, and i was crying. I'm praying and hope it's just a dream. Then, i do realize, maybe its wake up call for me to find my own choices. I know it's wrong, i am too selfish when i choose to give up, but i know sometimes the wrong choices bring us in the right places. I'm strong enough, sorry, i have learnt form my past. Everything happens for a reasons. I am thankful for everyday even if its good, bad or sad. Cause i know that God is there for me no matter what.